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Sunday, September 11, 2005
[Mood: Very Tired]

My second day being 18 and my first weekend after the start of school. It's been tiring. I don't know if it's just all the stress after being so laid back all summer, or that it has something to do with being a Senior and tired of it all, or just that the work is actually more of a strain. I'm even getting my old stress pains in my jaw, which might even be due to the weather, as it's suddenly gotten really cold, and I didn't have it last spring or this summer.

This weekend was a nice break, if you can call it that. I still had work, only to realize more work after that. But at least I had a little break for my birthday and today going to see "Howl's Moving Castle". The movie was pretty good, the only thing I didn't like story wise was probably how immediate the love story was. I mean does every boy and girl have to fall in love after a few meetings? The only romances that are worse are those that drag on forever, all that angst about telling their feelings and the annoying, meddling friends playing matchmaker. I mean mixing a bit of both wouldn't be so bad.

Reminds me that I saw the Escaflowne movie last night. Very odd art, though some guys looked very interesting. One thing that bothered me though was at the very beginning, Hitoami (I think) writes a suicide note that her friend finds. Her friend seems to take it like a hopeless love letter rather than the death threat it really was. I mean I know it needed to be avoided too seriously to continue the story, but it was taken way too lightly. I've seen suicide taken lightly or humorously before in anime, but that's usually some twisted point in the series. This was a drama, and one of the most dramatic points was turned into something else completely. I wonder if it's something in Japan, like few people do it, and many people find it pointless and rediculous, therefore it's not potrayed very seriously.

I need to get some sleep. Not only do I have more work to finish than I originally thought, but I'm trying to get myself in the habit of a nice refreshing sleep. It may not work out, because as one of my teachers informed us, if you adjust your sleep by more than 30 minutes either way, your going to be performing at a lower level. But if I try adjusting now it should become more natural and eventually I'll wake up feeling great, I hope. It doesn't help that they make us go to school at 7:40am. I've never heard of another school getting up that early, only to get out 3:10pm and then all the work. No wonder no one gets a healthy amount of sleep, no time.

-----Last dazed rambing was at 10:26 p.m.-----

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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
[Mood: Not Sure]

Ah, a new layout... that was made a year ago on a test site and never applied. I was reminded of my journal here today, in what I wouldn't call the best way. I wont name the guy who went over some old (over a year old) posts of mine that were pretty embarassing. I mean every girl has her moments of stupidity. I mean after a while no one really read this thing so I started to use it like a real journal, not just thought sharing. I took up this journal because it was what all my friends were doing, but the more I look at what I might do in the future the more I see extra use for something like this. As far as the embarassment of my sleep deprived behavior posting here, I'll just roll my eyes, flip my hair (which I never actually do) and smirk. For this embarassment is why I never kept a written diary, the irony. I guess I thought I was beyond true stupidity and over-sharing. Nope.

Well, anyway, since my Gaia journal is used for Gaia related thoughts (and theories) I figured I should get this up, especially if I plan to have a site for more professional use. I'll need to keep up with the HTML codes, which at Gaia I've slowly seen my skills deminish. Yeah, there's plenty of HTML code guides, but I'm better at testing things out myself. Some codes aren't exactly what they say, or don't apply to every program/site out there. Hopefully I can keep up with this journal better this time and progress in my HTML use.

-----Last dazed rambing was at 01:30 a.m.-----

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